a new chapter

I somewhat stumbled upon a journal entry that I deemed relevant and applicable to the creation of this page. I noticed that it seems fear was the primary motivator for me at this time. I recently saw a YT video that relates to both the publishing this site and this journal entry, which I've linked below. He contends that hope and fear are two of the greatest motivators, and claims that each human has a displacement towards using one as their primary motivator. Shoutout L10 RAW for providing a lil hopeful motivation.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWuNPRD1RCA

12.29.25

The beginning of a new chapter of my creative side. It's weak, tender, suppressed. But I still want it. I can't run from things I'm not sure of. That's not the life I want to live. But I still need to be ok with living with regrets/failure. There's a part of me that doesn't know how to do that. It's partly due to my past regrets/failures. I'm scared that I won't get better from it. But that just shows me that I will! Look at where I've been able to get to, in large part due to my past failures/regrets.

• failure to get my diploma on time/at all

• regrets w/ how I spent my time in college

• regret/failure of not making my high school ball

  what can I learn from these?

• be more diligent on formalized plans/courses of action

• spend time prioritizing doing things that I will look back on and be happy/proud of

• learn how to do it from the best/pay attention to the details/put time into the things you want the most

9.23.26